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Bloggable Things :)

‘Umulan ngayon, yehey. Nagamit ko ang jacket ko sa pagbili ng load sa katapat na tindahan.’ Haha. My brother would’ve put that on his online journal if he’s got one. He’s kinda… I don’t know, bothered, or maybe amazed, that people get to blog everything, as if making their journals like a surveillance camera that follows whatever they do, even things that need to be posted in public. May content, pero walang… content. He said to me. I laughed, but seriously, I also wanted to post my so-called ‘bloggable’ moments here now. Wala lang.

Ibblog ko to #1:

I’ve been craving for skittles recently. But I’m too lazy to go to Rob supermarket to buy one. I went home last night to find out my brother has bought me a pack already… without me asking for it. Aww. (Just gotta post that skittles image... minsan lang ako ilibre ni kuya and I gotta have a remembrance c: )

Ibblog ko to #2:

My Chemistry professor did not conduct a class yesterday, and most of my classmates were sad because that means we can’t get the opportunity to stare at him for a long time. The professor said we are almost finished with the lesson and we can afford a day off, but when we insisted he said: ’OK, what do you want us to talk about?’ we didn’t answer but we want to say: ‘How about your love life, Sir?’ haha.

Ibblog ko to #3:

I think my Ultimate Crush knows I like him.

Ibblog ko to #4:

I have learned yesterday that I could be sued for stalking. So from now on I swear I’ll stop looking into multiply accounts and tracking that someone. I won’t tell who’s that someone.

Ibblog ko to #5:

I’m so happy the Ateneo Blue Eagles are the champs for UAAP Men’s basketball. Chris Tiu is just so handsome. Haha.

Ibblog ko to #6:

Step aside, Demi. Joe Jonas is mine.

Ibblog ko to #7:

Recently I found out that my classmate, Mina, have been a Westlife fan for eight years. Westlife is the best boy group for me, I’ve been their fan since fool again days (I was in fourth grade then) and no one can take their place, not even the Jonas Brothers (peace out). But I laid low on being a fan after the Unbreakable album, when Bryan left the group. I still love them, and I was happy that I have a classmate who’s also a Lifer. I thought it was only I who can’t get over boybands, who, one of my friends told me, suck. Walang basagan ng trip. :)

Ibblog ko to #8:

I saw Ultimate Crush yesterday at the library. He was sitting down on the floor and I realized that that kid who attracted me a year and a half ago is still him. Maybe some things change, like the way he looks like, but some things just don’t. That includes the way I feel about him. Aww.

The Notebook

Noah’s letters to Allie when she left:

(From the Movie)
My Dearest Allie,

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever.
I love you. I'll be seeing you.

Noah

~*♥*♥*♥*~

(From The Novel)
The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we’ve lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we’ve found each other. And maybe each time, we’ve been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.

When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we’ve been forced to say goodbye.

I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again, and this is truly good-bye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we’ve had before.

Noah Calhoun

~*♥*♥*♥*~

Noah

I am nothing special; of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I’ve loved another will all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

You are the answer to every prayer I’ve offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper, and I don’t know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have. I love you, Allie, more than you could ever imagine. I always have, and I always will.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

I ne’er was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and so sweet
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
And stole my heart away complete

~*♥*♥*♥*~

Be composed – be at ease with me…
Not till the sun excludes you do I exclude you,
Not till the waters to refuse to glisten for you
And the leaves to rustle for you
Do my words refuse to glisten and rustle for you

~*♥*♥*♥*~

If not for my diaries, I would swear I had lived only half as long as I have. Long periods of my life seem to have vanished.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost,
No birth, identity, form – no object of the world,
Nor life, nor force, nor any visible thing;
The body, sluggish, aged, cold – the embers
Left from earlier fires,
…shall duly flame again.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

No drowning man can know which drop
Of water his last breath did stop…

~*♥*♥*♥*~

When I see you now - moving slowly with new life growing inside you – I hope you know how much you mean to me, and how special this year has been. No man is more blessed than me, and I love you with all my heart.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

In times of grief and sorrow I will hold you and rock you, and take care of your grief and make it my own. When you cry, I cry, and when you hurt, I hurt. And together we will try to hold back the floods of tears and despair and make it through the potholed streets of life.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

The porch is silent except for the sound that float from the shadows, and for once I am at a lost for words. It is a strange experience for me, for when I think of you and the life we have shared, there is much to remember. A lifetime of memories. But to put it into words? I do not know if I am able. I am not a poet, and yet a poem is needed to fully express the way I feel about you.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

Dusk, I realized then, is just an illusion, because the sun is either above the horizon or below it. And that means that day and night are linked in a way that few things are, there cannot be one without the other, yet they cannot exist at the same time. How would it feel, I remember wondering, to be always together, yet forever apart?

~*♥*♥*♥*~

I am still yours, Allie, my queen, my timeless beauty. You are and always have been, the best thing in my life.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

Allie

And I will feel your warmth and your comfort, and your breaths will slowly guide me to the place where I dream of you and the wonderful man you are.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

I love you for many things, especially your passions, for they have always been those things which are most beautiful in life.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

You are my best friend as well as my lover and I don’t know which side of you I enjoy the most. I treasure each side, just as I have treasured our life together. You have something inside you, something beautiful and strong. Kindness, that’s what I see when I look at you now, that’s what everyone sees. You are the most peaceful man I know. God is with you, he must be, for you are the closest thing to an angel that I’ve ever met.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

So I love you deeply, so incredibly much, that I will find a way to come back to you despite my disease, no matter what.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

You are, and always have been, my dream.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

Who was I to question a love that rode on shooting stars and crashing waves? For that is what it was between us then and that is what it is today.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

i love this life

I just proved my mom, my brother and my grandma loves me so much.

When I thought I have done the bad thing, they’ll come and say that I did not.

They stand by me.

So what if I lose the world? When I come home I know I still have my mom, my grandma and my brother who, upon understanding the issue and knowing the reason why, and knowing that I have the right one, will stand by me right away.

And that is why I love them. They raised me up knowing what I should do and what I should not. They taught me to stand firm on my decisions and believe on what I think is right.

I love my mom. I love my brother. I love my grandma. I love my dad.

I love this life because I am living it with the best people ever.ü

can't get enough of 'Crush'

David James Archuleta is awesome. Need I elaborate more on that? Haha. So his first music video premiered on iTunes today, and I was shocked to see his face at the top of the iTunes page… like this:


And the music video is beautiful, trust me. He’s soooo cute (how many times have I said this?) so please pleaaase support him and get a copy of it on iTunes. So there. :)

so cute! :)

The latest one of David Archuleta’s video blogs made me laugh out loud… and blush at the same time of course. He’s so cute and thoughtful! And he made a video blog right in the middle of the Detroit airport, because he thought it would be cool for us to see that tunnel thing there. Awww. And I love it when he laughs at the end of every sentence. Another awww. Oh, by the way, here’s the video. Indulge yourself. Haha. But please turn of the music player this blog has on the side so that his wonderful voice does not mix with his wonderful songs. :D



And oh, also check out who’s behind the camera. :)

From Someone Who's Always Been A Failure

Trust. Take risks.

Last Thursday, we were talking on Organizational Communication 101 about it. I remembered when my 4^th year English teacher told us not to take the UPCAT if we are not sure we would pass, or if we are not doing well on our academics. It would just be a waste of your money for the testing fee, she said. I was one of those she was referring to, of course. Some of my classmates actually listened; they did not even bother to submit application forms. But I just can't let go of my UP dream. I took a shot at it, even though I wasn't sure of myself. I took the chance, hoped for the best, and never ceased believing. Now, here I am, studying in the best university no one ever thought I'd have the chance to enter.

That's it. Learn how to trust and take risks. Ironically though, that's the thing I am having a hard time to do right now. It's just that when I trust myself, I always turn out to be disappointed in the end. I am sick and tired of taking risks and losing everything in the end. I can still remember those times when I was still overflowing with confidence. I'd always take risks and do things I thought I could do, and betray everyone who had put their trust in me, including myself. I never learn from those failures. I always take risks and betray everyone.

And now I've had enough. I'm tired of failing. I've had a ton of flunked departmental exams, messed up class recitations and reports and nonsensical reaction papers. I've always trusted myself that I can do it, but I just know I can't. This pretend-I-trust-myself-and-take-risks thing is not working for me. It just makes me betray everyone around me, makes me betray myself.

The confidence I've summoned lifted me up, high, but only for a moment. And now I'm falling face down.



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Now playing: John Mayer - No Such thing
via FoxyTunes

I'm waiting...

So it's 4 in the morning and I am doing my History 4 paper, it's a Content Analysis for some feminist songs. I totally forgot about it over my long weekend, and now I'm cramming! grr. It somehow annoys me that I can't find the lyrics and the singers' background on the net. I so dang blame myself for being lazy. :(

But, it still is a good thing I am doing this right now, because I can get myself a dose of Radio Disney while I type away, listening to some upbeat music by Miley Cyrus and The Jonas Brothers, among others. Ha. I am just waiting for DAVID ARCHULETA to be there and take over. *blush* and I thought yesterday I'd miss it. But hey, this is one of varying timezones gleeful surprises. Gosh, I just hope I could dial the digits and talk to him. after that I'd probably be dead because of happiness. I'm loving my morning cramming just for now, thanks to David Archuleta. *another blush*

So there, I'm gonna have me more of RD, and a ton of schoolwork. Hasta Luego. :)

I So Dang Hate It

But still, I love Radio Disney so much. Because of this:

David Archuleta will be there tomorrow and I won’t be able to tune in because I’ll be in school. I don’t have a radio to bring with me, it wouldn’t help if I do anyway, because it’s online streaming I’m doing and Radio Disney isn’t available here in the Philippines. Dang it.

Ha. Just want to let you know how much of a fanatic I am. You know I would do everything for David Archuleta. I told my friends that if I got the chance to hug him, you can shoot me afterwards. Just hearing him say random blahs make me smile. He’s so cute. And I hate it that I’d miss him on Radio Disney tomorrow. :(

Long live David Archuleta. Long live Radio Disney.

(Just another whatever post.)

whatever.

August 22, 2008: the day when Yayie almost gathered a puddle of me on the floor.

I was walking the hallway from the Little, Little Theater to Natural Sciences classroom with Yayie and Diane. We were going down the stairs, and I saw you, clad in formal attire. You looked at me with piercing eyes.

That’s when I melted.

It’s amazing to know what a pair of leather shoes, slacks, polo and a tie can do to mesmerize me. It was my first time to see you like that; I was used to seeing you in jeans and shirt. And you were standing at the foot of the stairs, which made me imagine you were waiting for me… like those scenarios I have seen in fairytales. It was all so dreamy.

Funny how everything I thought was gone would just come back in a blink of the eye.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do… You make me love you.

This phrase fits me right now. Thanks, Miley Cyrus. Dang it, I’m infested with the Miley virus.

~*♥*♥*♥*~

Know more of my favorite songs as of the moment here. :)