Confused

Somehow, 'now more than ever' seems a little bit untrue.

Three Words, I'm Smitten.

I just can’t let go of
What I’ve been praying for
Since this year’s first 16th
After all that you’ve done
It’s hard for me not to fall, I’m sorry.

With just one glance
A wave of your hand, a smile
Three words from your lips—
And I’m smitten.
You won me over again.

Did I say again?
Then that would be a lie
Because I have always been in love with you…
From the start, even before I knew it.
Always.

It is still you who enters my mind
Whenever I hear a love song,
Or when I think of forever,
Or when I see chocolate ice cream cones.
It is still your hand I want to link with mine,
Your eyes to look into for the rest of my life…
It is still you who I’d want to meet at the altar.

I am sorry for thinking like this—
For loving you too much,
Maybe even more than she does.
I am sorry but I just can’t point out
What makes me so sure
That you are the one made for me...
When you aren’t even mine right now.

I am sorry for not letting go
Of our beautiful love story
That started with piggyback rides
Way back in kindergarten.
Go on with your life,
I’ll still be waiting...
My prince. My fairytale. My destiny.
I love you, now more than ever.

14:49

I like the way you make an effort for us to be more at ease with each other. You have shown us that you are just as normal as we are, with, well… a few exceptions brought about by your being so talented and all. After what happened today, you might think that I am to treat you the way I do with others, but no, I saw that you are indeed special. 

Through you God answered my prayers last night. :D

For my First Love

True faith flowers from and through doubt… ask those questions you’ve always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.

Dear Lord,

            Thank You for answering me. Thank You for always, being there. Thank You for reaffirming Your promises when I doubt. Thank You, for I know, my prayers are already answered.

            Thank You for giving me Your word, that I should trust in You with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5). Thank You for Your tender touch and for tracing my tears as they fall.

            Thank You Lord, for this day. Thank You for the revelation You have given me. I am sorry for doubting Your promises even for a second. Thank You for the assurance. Thank You for Your unending love.

            I love You, Lord. Thank You for giving me these feelings to teach me lessons that I may be of use someday. Thank You for being so patient and for being a listener to everything I feel. Thank You for Your promises and Your best plan for me.

            I could go on and on thanking You, Lord. Please accept this life and mold me into what would be pleasing to You. I love You, and I am in awe of You.

Love,

Karen

A year ago, I was given this.

Pero, seriously, ask God to guard your heart... who knows, kayo pala talaga? Or you will find someone better? Siguro hindi mo pa maiisip 'yung latter sa sobra mong paghanga sa kanya... but it is possible. Ihahanda ka naman ng Diyos sa kung anumang mangyayari e, hingin mo lang ang gabay niya. (Yangyang, 2008)

This advice from my good friend was given to me as a comment on multiply on October 10 last year. This guided my heart and since then, many unexpected things happened.

Thank you for this, Faye my labs. I hope this will be of great help to you now that you are in that situation.

Faithful Father

I woke up this morning with a song in my head:

This is my song of praise to You
For who You are, and all that You do 
From the moment my life began  
You have been faithful...

Indeed, God has been faithful since my life began. Little wonders to great achievements unfold each day in front of my very eyes. But how many times have I thanked him for being so? Not even with half of my lifetime. Still, He continues on and on, His mercies flowing, His love unending.

God is an awesome and loving God.

D, v.29: The end (for now) of the D Chronicles

It’s been quite a while since I visited this blog, even more when I last made an entry.

Now I have decided to give up everything I used to feel for you. I won’t forget everything – I would just want to revert to the days when I used to see you nothing more than a friend. As I considered doing this, I thought of whether I really loved you. From what is happening, I initially thought I did not, because I do not feel any hurt as I try to let you go. But then, on second thought, maybe I loved you, maybe even so much that if letting her have you would be the only thing that makes you happy, I would gladly give it to you.

I know God send people my way for special reasons, and your coming into my life had its purpose. Through you He showed me someone I could follow and an inspiration to help me change for the better. I owe a lot to you, and I know that things will fix themselves up if you are really the one for me. Thank you for teaching me how to believe.

Have you not played THAT song, I wouldn’t be like this

…And the feeling that I’m falling further in love makes me shiver, but in a good way... ♥

No Excuse to be Angry

My desktop’s mouse scrolled its last an hour ago. I had to go to my cousin’s to borrow hers and make it through our book report. I was surprised at how calm I’ve acted toward that situation which, in a normal day would send me screaming and shouting and panicking down the stairs. I did not. Instead I asked my brother what could have happened, and when I saw that it can’t be revived, I gladly said “OK lang, hihiramin ko na lang yung kay Racquel.” No bad words, no feelings of frustration. Hindi ko inasar ang sarili ko, kasi alam ko, ayaw mo ng ganun.

Thanks for inspiring me. :D

A Night in the University

September 26 is one of the longest days of my life. My degree program celebrated its 25^th anniversary and we organized a conference that was cut short due to bad weather.

Because it was raining very hard, we decided to spend the night in the university. And yes, we were wearing corporate attire.

Still, I have been so blessed because I slept in the university, and I am safe from the storm and was not stranded on the way home. My brother and his girlfriend spent 13 hours traveling from SM North Edsa to our home in Bulacan – a journey that would take only two hours on an ordinary day. And mind you, sleeping in the university was fun.

The professors that stayed with us were very much concerned about the students. They were the ones that ordered food for us and asks us if we are okay. God, thank you very much for giving me such brilliant and caring instructors.

I left the university at 9 am the next morning. Thank God the expressway is not flooded anymore and I got home with ease. My gratitude goes out to my best friend Maricar who was very concerned about my situation, my grade school classmates Floro, Anjane and Yeyen who asked whether I got home safely, my spiritual sisters Ana, who continually asked for updates and Ate Jing who asked how am I doing, Tita Bhe who prayed for me and all others who were stranded, my Mom who called to check on me, to my block mates Karen, Gem, Marj, and Larra who bravely went to Robinson’s just to buy toiletries and food that will get us through the night, and to Jen, Kim, Roanne, and Sha who prayed with me for the safety of everyone.

Indeed, God has amazing ways to show us how blessed we are.

PS. Please help those people in need by giving cash, food, clothes and other goods to the Red Cross. For UP Manila students, you can bring your donations to the ground floor of the student center at the old NEDA building, or outside the USC office at the fourth floor. Prayers can help a lot too.